Happy New Year everyone!
Well, my new year started as a pretty good high surrounded by family AND FRIENDS! =D ...and then it turned to be a pretty low low as I was pushed around by my 8 year-old godsister who acts more like a 40 year-old socialite imo >_> Pathetic of me. How pathetic. I dare any of you to deal with her and not end up the way I do.
Well you probably could, I'm just a pushover like that though.
Here's to hoping for a brighter tomorrow T~T
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Oh yeah, and about that 30 day challenge? Unsurprisingly, I failed it majorly >_> and atm have no particular desire to finish it. I got my day 11 posted >D Oh well... might pick it up or at least do some of the random posts another time when I'm bored enough.
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Monday, December 12, 2011
[11/30] Songs
Day 11: Put your iPod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.
This'll be fun... there's a fairly high possibility that whoever reads this won't know all 10 songs though =3
1. Hikari - Jyukai [from Fate/Stay Night]
2. Second Go - Lights
3. Boku wa Kimi ni Koi wo Suru - Ken Hirai
4. Open - Kaori Utatsuki [from Tsuyokiss]
5. Hajimete no Oto (+2 keys) - clear's version [original by Hatsune Miku]
6. Sonatina in E Flat Major, Op. 4, No. 7 - Samuel Wesley
7. Boku no Speed de - Ryoko Shiraishi's version [original by Yonekura Chihiro from Mahoraba]
8. Dokugan Salamander - Pokota and Sekihan
9. Prototype - Chiaki Ishikawa [from Gundam 00]
10. Soshite Boku wa - Yui Sakikabara [from Prism Ark]
Aww... didn't manage to get any French songs into the mix xP Then again, with 1662 songs (10.02GB) in my library being predominantly Japanese... wasn't too likely.
Because I was bored (and still hoping to find other languages) I did 10 more.
11. Rakuen - Jack
12. Pikapika no Taiyou - Kana Ueda [from Gakuen Alice]
13. Ni Ying Gai Bei Zhen Xi - Fahrenheit
14. Wish - Mariko Kouda [from Mamotte Shugogetten]
15. Pretend - Lights
16. Tian Xin Zhou - Rainie Yang
17. Ryuusei Miracle - Ikimono-gakari
18. You - Yuria [from Shuffle]
19. Girlfriend - Kana Nishino
20. Forever & Always - Taylor Swift
Still no French... but I got the Mandarin in there xD Good enough... I was kind of surprised by the turnout though... I was pretty sure I'd have a LOT more NND songs in the mix since that's all I've been downloading lately and I've been getting like x number of versions of the same songs just 'cuz I download whole albums and it feels like a waste to delete them @_@
So how many of my list have YOU heard? xD
This'll be fun... there's a fairly high possibility that whoever reads this won't know all 10 songs though =3
1. Hikari - Jyukai [from Fate/Stay Night]
2. Second Go - Lights
3. Boku wa Kimi ni Koi wo Suru - Ken Hirai
4. Open - Kaori Utatsuki [from Tsuyokiss]
5. Hajimete no Oto (+2 keys) - clear's version [original by Hatsune Miku]
6. Sonatina in E Flat Major, Op. 4, No. 7 - Samuel Wesley
7. Boku no Speed de - Ryoko Shiraishi's version [original by Yonekura Chihiro from Mahoraba]
8. Dokugan Salamander - Pokota and Sekihan
9. Prototype - Chiaki Ishikawa [from Gundam 00]
10. Soshite Boku wa - Yui Sakikabara [from Prism Ark]
Aww... didn't manage to get any French songs into the mix xP Then again, with 1662 songs (10.02GB) in my library being predominantly Japanese... wasn't too likely.
Because I was bored (and still hoping to find other languages) I did 10 more.
11. Rakuen - Jack
12. Pikapika no Taiyou - Kana Ueda [from Gakuen Alice]
13. Ni Ying Gai Bei Zhen Xi - Fahrenheit
14. Wish - Mariko Kouda [from Mamotte Shugogetten]
15. Pretend - Lights
16. Tian Xin Zhou - Rainie Yang
17. Ryuusei Miracle - Ikimono-gakari
18. You - Yuria [from Shuffle]
19. Girlfriend - Kana Nishino
20. Forever & Always - Taylor Swift
Still no French... but I got the Mandarin in there xD Good enough... I was kind of surprised by the turnout though... I was pretty sure I'd have a LOT more NND songs in the mix since that's all I've been downloading lately and I've been getting like x number of versions of the same songs just 'cuz I download whole albums and it feels like a waste to delete them @_@
So how many of my list have YOU heard? xD
Sunday, December 11, 2011
[10/30] First Love
Day 10: Discuss your first love and first kiss
O_O.... *facepalms*...
Well, at least the second half doesn't have to happen seeing as I've never had a 'first kiss' at least the romantic way I'm pretty sure this thing is implying.
First love... It's hard to define my first love imo... there was a guy I thought I liked who use to sit next to me in elementary school... I don't remember much about it but I remember he picked on me and I picked right back at him, but when I had troubles a couple of times he would help me out x3 ...and that one time when we all had to get our tetanus shots he got dizzy and had to sit aside and drink apple juice. I laughed at him for that >D what can I say? I was a heartless kid...
I think there was a guy before that that I liked, but somehow when I told someone they told him and then he made fun of me. But thinking about it, he was a pompous brat and I don't know what I would've ever seen in him since I didn't even have any reason to like him... so I don't count it xP Neither do I count that guy that used to sit next to me actually =3
In my opinion there's a 'crush' and a 'love'... and if I had to classify things, most of the people I liked have been 'crushes' that were pretty superficial and not really serious. Then moving on from there I guess I'd say I've only been 'in love' once in my life. I think talking to him was the first time I'd ever REALLY empathized with anyone. Then things happened, time passed. I think from some Manga I was reading there was this quote that talked about the breakdown of love as being something like '10% luck and 90% timing'... the statistics are probably totally different but who cares, that probably describes things to a tee. Carpe diem. Seize the day. Don't let the moment pass you by and then live the rest of your life looking back in regret.
One day when I'm strong enough I'll thank him and tell him how much he meant to me. But for now the conversations we had together and the experiences we shared will still remain my memories in the moonlight ^^
O_O.... *facepalms*...
Well, at least the second half doesn't have to happen seeing as I've never had a 'first kiss' at least the romantic way I'm pretty sure this thing is implying.
First love... It's hard to define my first love imo... there was a guy I thought I liked who use to sit next to me in elementary school... I don't remember much about it but I remember he picked on me and I picked right back at him, but when I had troubles a couple of times he would help me out x3 ...and that one time when we all had to get our tetanus shots he got dizzy and had to sit aside and drink apple juice. I laughed at him for that >D what can I say? I was a heartless kid...
I think there was a guy before that that I liked, but somehow when I told someone they told him and then he made fun of me. But thinking about it, he was a pompous brat and I don't know what I would've ever seen in him since I didn't even have any reason to like him... so I don't count it xP Neither do I count that guy that used to sit next to me actually =3
In my opinion there's a 'crush' and a 'love'... and if I had to classify things, most of the people I liked have been 'crushes' that were pretty superficial and not really serious. Then moving on from there I guess I'd say I've only been 'in love' once in my life. I think talking to him was the first time I'd ever REALLY empathized with anyone. Then things happened, time passed. I think from some Manga I was reading there was this quote that talked about the breakdown of love as being something like '10% luck and 90% timing'... the statistics are probably totally different but who cares, that probably describes things to a tee. Carpe diem. Seize the day. Don't let the moment pass you by and then live the rest of your life looking back in regret.
One day when I'm strong enough I'll thank him and tell him how much he meant to me. But for now the conversations we had together and the experiences we shared will still remain my memories in the moonlight ^^
Saturday, December 10, 2011
[9/30] Future... or not?
Day 09: How you hope your future will be like
Today's challenge is invalid seeing as I've already done it in day 2 when I discussed where I'd like to be in 10 years! D<
So instead I'll be doing a fangirl dedication go my favorite NND singer for the past few months... CLEAR~~ x3
I can't remember who I've talked about months ago, but I'm pretty sure it was just Sekihan and ShounenT. Don't get me wrong, they're still awesome and I still like them... just for different reasons and not as much as clear x3
The way I see it, Sekihan is (as my friend puts is) "a freak of nature" in a freakishly amazing way @_@ goodness knows how he's able to conjure up such variety in his voice. He released a new... album... recently which is something like old.... fairytales... (I can't think of the right word atm... the word for stories like Cinderella and Jack and the Beanstalk and whatnot~) narrated in his voice where he's speaking like an old woman. Personally, unlike his young girl voice, I don't think his old woman voice is as convincing/amazing/appealing. But that's a whole different discussion~ Moving on...
ShounenT I like mostly because he's pretty cute, his blog is adorable and I like the fact that he's like 6 months older than me x3
and then there's clear. omg there's clear @___@ idk why it took me the first few months on nico to realize it, but he has a BEAUTIFUL voice... it's so... so... CLEAR! (okay now I feel like I've said this before... if this is a repeat rant... too bad. It's clear and he's worth it~ x3) I think my craze about him probably started when I finally decided to download his Dearest album after seeing it around so many times and eventually stumbling across it. VERY unfortunately, I can't really put links to most of his best songs here because most of his best songs (imo) come from albums that he hasn't uploaded full versions up on nico T~T So if you're reading this rant and are curious to hear what I'm talking about, GO DOWNLOAD HIS ALBUMS Dearest AND Dearest II! They're so awesome I swear you'll never regret it @___@
My favorites from Dearest (which probably started me on this craze) are:
「ねぇ。」// Nee.
ゆびきり // Yubikiri
Under the Snow
They are SO pretty @_@ yeah I'm a sucker for those quiet kinds of songs... and he just happens to sing those best~ imo anyways xD
I also highly recommend his ACUTE with Seryu and Wotamin which I remember linking months and months ago... and here come the link spams~ If you're too lazy to listen to them all just listen to the first one. Moon. Absolute best~! Though Because of You runs a close second @_@
Other favorites:
From Dearest II:
~Ashita he (featuring RapBit. I agree with the comments that it's a bit like GReeeeN's style @_@)
~Little Traveler (he sang this at the live in Taiwan. Absolutely beautiful @___@)
~Pianissimo (I think it's composed and accompanied by koman? xD)
~Namida no Kiseki (I think this one comes from some game ED? Possibly a BL one. It's beautiful regardless~)
~Shining (from his single "Shining")
~Reverberation (from 4x4 - four by four- collaboration CD. I didn't really like the rest of the CD but this song is amazing! As expected of clear~!)
~Magnet (with Dasoku. Not one of my favorites of his, but probably his most popular one as voted by others xD)
~Polaris (with Asamaru. From the PointFive(.5) album COLOR)
~Hoshi no Komori Uta (with Dasoku. From the PointFive(.5) album enhAnce)
There's others too but I think I'll just keep my list at that... there's just so many good songs by clear in general *spazzes*! Go download his albums nao and become addicted to them like I have @_@
By the way, these are the albums by him/featuring him that I've downloaded... I'm sure he had other earlier singles... only I haven't had the time/haven't really felt like looking back further.
Singles:
~Shining
~Kawaranu Omoi
~Kikoete Imasu ka
Solo Albums:
~Dearest
~Dearest II
Collab Albums:
~First Contact (with nero)
~Second Impact (with nero)
~Moratorium (Nem's Garden. collab with a bunch of popular utaite singers)
~4x4 -four by four- (collab with 3 other utaite and 4 producers who wrote the songs they sing)
PointFive(.5) Releases: (members are clear, dasoku, amu, asamaru and mi-chan)
~enhAnce (first album)
~Select me (first single)
~COLOUR (second single)
~Kimi Reflection (third single)
~Doushinen (second album)
Today's challenge is invalid seeing as I've already done it in day 2 when I discussed where I'd like to be in 10 years! D<
So instead I'll be doing a fangirl dedication go my favorite NND singer for the past few months... CLEAR~~ x3
I can't remember who I've talked about months ago, but I'm pretty sure it was just Sekihan and ShounenT. Don't get me wrong, they're still awesome and I still like them... just for different reasons and not as much as clear x3
The way I see it, Sekihan is (as my friend puts is) "a freak of nature" in a freakishly amazing way @_@ goodness knows how he's able to conjure up such variety in his voice. He released a new... album... recently which is something like old.... fairytales... (I can't think of the right word atm... the word for stories like Cinderella and Jack and the Beanstalk and whatnot~) narrated in his voice where he's speaking like an old woman. Personally, unlike his young girl voice, I don't think his old woman voice is as convincing/amazing/appealing. But that's a whole different discussion~ Moving on...
ShounenT I like mostly because he's pretty cute, his blog is adorable and I like the fact that he's like 6 months older than me x3
and then there's clear. omg there's clear @___@ idk why it took me the first few months on nico to realize it, but he has a BEAUTIFUL voice... it's so... so... CLEAR! (okay now I feel like I've said this before... if this is a repeat rant... too bad. It's clear and he's worth it~ x3) I think my craze about him probably started when I finally decided to download his Dearest album after seeing it around so many times and eventually stumbling across it. VERY unfortunately, I can't really put links to most of his best songs here because most of his best songs (imo) come from albums that he hasn't uploaded full versions up on nico T~T So if you're reading this rant and are curious to hear what I'm talking about, GO DOWNLOAD HIS ALBUMS Dearest AND Dearest II! They're so awesome I swear you'll never regret it @___@
My favorites from Dearest (which probably started me on this craze) are:
「ねぇ。」// Nee.
ゆびきり // Yubikiri
Under the Snow
They are SO pretty @_@ yeah I'm a sucker for those quiet kinds of songs... and he just happens to sing those best~ imo anyways xD
I also highly recommend his ACUTE with Seryu and Wotamin which I remember linking months and months ago... and here come the link spams~ If you're too lazy to listen to them all just listen to the first one. Moon. Absolute best~! Though Because of You runs a close second @_@
Other favorites:
From Dearest II:
~Ashita he (featuring RapBit. I agree with the comments that it's a bit like GReeeeN's style @_@)
~Little Traveler (he sang this at the live in Taiwan. Absolutely beautiful @___@)
~Pianissimo (I think it's composed and accompanied by koman? xD)
~Namida no Kiseki (I think this one comes from some game ED? Possibly a BL one. It's beautiful regardless~)
~Shining (from his single "Shining")
~Reverberation (from 4x4 - four by four- collaboration CD. I didn't really like the rest of the CD but this song is amazing! As expected of clear~!)
~Magnet (with Dasoku. Not one of my favorites of his, but probably his most popular one as voted by others xD)
~Polaris (with Asamaru. From the PointFive(.5) album COLOR)
~Hoshi no Komori Uta (with Dasoku. From the PointFive(.5) album enhAnce)
There's others too but I think I'll just keep my list at that... there's just so many good songs by clear in general *spazzes*! Go download his albums nao and become addicted to them like I have @_@
By the way, these are the albums by him/featuring him that I've downloaded... I'm sure he had other earlier singles... only I haven't had the time/haven't really felt like looking back further.
Singles:
~Shining
~Kawaranu Omoi
~Kikoete Imasu ka
Solo Albums:
~Dearest
~Dearest II
Collab Albums:
~First Contact (with nero)
~Second Impact (with nero)
~Moratorium (Nem's Garden. collab with a bunch of popular utaite singers)
~4x4 -four by four- (collab with 3 other utaite and 4 producers who wrote the songs they sing)
PointFive(.5) Releases: (members are clear, dasoku, amu, asamaru and mi-chan)
~enhAnce (first album)
~Select me (first single)
~COLOUR (second single)
~Kimi Reflection (third single)
~Doushinen (second album)
Thursday, December 8, 2011
[7/30] Zodiac
Well... speaking of zodiac signs I don't understand whether it's asking for going by star sign or Chinese zodiac... so I'll do both x3 and offhand I don't know what my zodiac sign/animal is supposed to be like, so I'd better research that first =3
Day 07: Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality
Western Star Sign: Gemini
Element: Air
Ruling Planets: Mercury
Symbol: The Twins
Stone: Aquamarine
Life Pursuit: To explore a little bit of everything.
Vibration: Intense mental energy
Gemini's Secret Desire: To be ahead of the crowd
http://www.psychicguild.com/horoscopes_zodiac.php?sign=Gemini
Pros:
Adaptable and versatile
Communicative and witty
Intellectual and eloquent
Youthful and lively
Cons:
Nervous and tense
Superficial and inconsistent
Cunning and inquisitive
http://www.astrology-online.com/gemini.htm
Okay... looking at that stuff I guess it kind of fits my personality? The stuff from the first site I've definitely heard parts of before so I could be biased by shaping my thinking to see myself in that light, but oh well. As for the second site...
>Adaptable and versatile... I suppose I'm kind of. Though when certain things don't go as planned it stresses me out to no end... like that psych project where my group mate didn't hand in the group project on time x_x
>Communicative and witty: err.... no.
>Intellectual and eloquent: I'd like to think of myself as such =3 dunno how that matches up with reality though xD
>Youthful and lively: umm... about procrastinating, Pokemon, NND, and that's about it ;D
>Nervous and tense: definitely.
>Superficial and inconsistent: without a doubt.
>Cunning and inquisitive: absolutely.
I'd say the negatives fit me to a tee moreso than the positives xD All that stuff I've realized about where I fail is pretty much summed up there... well with a bit missing of course.
Seems like overall Gemini is a pretty good match for me even though I never thought so o.o Could be just me, but when I think of Gemini the first thing I think about is not having a twin D: So it never occurred to me that I could actually fit the mold so closely in other ways actually xD
Chinese Zodiac: Monkey
Personality: Occupying the 9th position on the Chinese Zodiac, the Monkey possesses such character traits as curiosity, mischievousness, and cleverness. Forever playful, Monkeys are the masters of practical jokes. Even though their intentions are always good, this desire to be a prankster has a tendency to create ill will and hurt feelings.
http://www.chinesezodiac.com/monkey.php#personality
o.o If I thought the Gemini description fit me pretty well I laughed at how close the monkey seems to fit me... or that's what I think anyways. I still maintain the opinion that I'm NOT witty (I'm as boring as idk what since I'm so boring I can't think of a witty comparison -.-") I loled at the prospective job suggestions though... me plus anything to do with math or science seems HIGHLY likely to end in disaster... loled even more at the relationships. Perhaps. Just perhaps I WOULD be promiscuous. If anyone would actually WANT me enough that I would have people to be promiscuous WITH... orz haha... just kidding.
I think that the one thing that fits me the most out of all these personality analyses is that last line of what a water monkey is: If they can stay focused, they can succeed, but more often than not, they’re easily distracted from their goals. NATURAL PROCRASTINATOR BY BIRTH YEAR! OH YEAH~ Don't tell me it's not in my genes, it totally IS! >D /shot
Day 07: Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality
Western Star Sign: Gemini
Element: Air
Ruling Planets: Mercury
Symbol: The Twins
Stone: Aquamarine
Life Pursuit: To explore a little bit of everything.
Vibration: Intense mental energy
Gemini's Secret Desire: To be ahead of the crowd
http://www.psychicguild.com/horoscopes_zodiac.php?sign=Gemini
Pros:
Adaptable and versatile
Communicative and witty
Intellectual and eloquent
Youthful and lively
Cons:
Nervous and tense
Superficial and inconsistent
Cunning and inquisitive
http://www.astrology-online.com/gemini.htm
Okay... looking at that stuff I guess it kind of fits my personality? The stuff from the first site I've definitely heard parts of before so I could be biased by shaping my thinking to see myself in that light, but oh well. As for the second site...
>Adaptable and versatile... I suppose I'm kind of. Though when certain things don't go as planned it stresses me out to no end... like that psych project where my group mate didn't hand in the group project on time x_x
>Communicative and witty: err.... no.
>Intellectual and eloquent: I'd like to think of myself as such =3 dunno how that matches up with reality though xD
>Youthful and lively: umm... about procrastinating, Pokemon, NND, and that's about it ;D
>Nervous and tense: definitely.
>Superficial and inconsistent: without a doubt.
>Cunning and inquisitive: absolutely.
I'd say the negatives fit me to a tee moreso than the positives xD All that stuff I've realized about where I fail is pretty much summed up there... well with a bit missing of course.
Seems like overall Gemini is a pretty good match for me even though I never thought so o.o Could be just me, but when I think of Gemini the first thing I think about is not having a twin D: So it never occurred to me that I could actually fit the mold so closely in other ways actually xD
Chinese Zodiac: Monkey
Personality: Occupying the 9th position on the Chinese Zodiac, the Monkey possesses such character traits as curiosity, mischievousness, and cleverness. Forever playful, Monkeys are the masters of practical jokes. Even though their intentions are always good, this desire to be a prankster has a tendency to create ill will and hurt feelings.
Although they are inherently intellectual and creative, Monkeys at times have trouble exhibiting these qualities. When that happens, they appear to others to be confused. But nothing could be further from the truth as Monkeys thrive on being challenged. Monkeys prefer urban life to rural, and their favorite pastime is people-watching.
Health: Believing that being sick is a waste of a valuable day, Monkeys very rarely feel ill. Their constantly active lifestyles are likely what helps Monkeys remain in good health. When Monkeys do become ill, such feelings are generally the result of feeling nervous.
Career: When it comes to work, Monkeys can do just about anything. They adapt well to changing environments and they’re very intelligent. They work quickly, but they’ll frequently charge double for their services. Good career fields for Monkeys are accounting and banking. Other good careers for Monkeys include: scientist, engineer, stock market trader, air traffic controller, dealer, film director, jeweler and sales representative.
Relationships: When it comes to relationships, Monkeys aren’t quick to settle down. In fact, they generally are promiscuous; a tendency that probably has to do with the fact that Monkeys are easily bored. Monkeys will end this type of behavior once they pair up with the perfect partner. In fact, more often than not, they’ll commit to that person in every way for life.
Elemental Monkey (Water): Water Monkeys are extremely sensitive and often feel hurt by the things that are said to them. They refuse to show their sensitive side to others and as a result, are extreme jokesters. If they can stay focused, they can succeed, but more often than not, they’re easily distracted from their goals.http://www.chinesezodiac.com/monkey.php#personality
o.o If I thought the Gemini description fit me pretty well I laughed at how close the monkey seems to fit me... or that's what I think anyways. I still maintain the opinion that I'm NOT witty (I'm as boring as idk what since I'm so boring I can't think of a witty comparison -.-") I loled at the prospective job suggestions though... me plus anything to do with math or science seems HIGHLY likely to end in disaster... loled even more at the relationships. Perhaps. Just perhaps I WOULD be promiscuous. If anyone would actually WANT me enough that I would have people to be promiscuous WITH... orz haha... just kidding.
I think that the one thing that fits me the most out of all these personality analyses is that last line of what a water monkey is: If they can stay focused, they can succeed, but more often than not, they’re easily distracted from their goals. NATURAL PROCRASTINATOR BY BIRTH YEAR! OH YEAH~ Don't tell me it's not in my genes, it totally IS! >D /shot
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
[6/30] 30 Interesting Facts
Hmm I quite like this one... luckily I actually have the time tonight to think of it... problem is, while I'm egotistical and self-centered and feel like there's TONS to write about myself, it's really hard to think of 30 'interesting' things on the spot like this...
Disclaimer: I can't promise they'll be interesting, they may not necessarily be all about me and some of them may be quite similar since I probably will think of one thing which will lead to another. Well... here goes anyways...
Day 06: Write 30 interesting facts about yourself
1. My "somewhat-official" middle name is Catherine.
2. I love Pokemon to the point where I can name almost all (darn Black and White ones) of them (or at least describe in detail any you throw at me =3).
3. My only plan for the future is to study abroad in Japan next year.
4. I love the dark.
5. I don't believe in ghosts, fairies, magic, the Easter bunny and the like.
6. I love all things artsy except for actually drawing or painting.
7. I've never pulled a reall all-nighter for school work to date.
8. Related to 7, rather than pull an all-nighter I would find some excuse as to why I couldn't hand in the work.
9. I lie a lot more than I should.
10. Overall I'm even uglier on the inside than on the outside.
11. I'm honestly blessed for the fact that I DO have friends despite my ugliness.
12. I'm an impossible romantic at heart.
13. I think it will be impossible for me to be in a relationship because my standards border ridiculous.
14. I'm a sneaky person that plays to other people's emotions for self-satisfaction.
15. I'm probably overconfident about all my abilities except for math and science.
16. I hate looking ignorant so I pretend to know about some things I have no idea about when people talk about it.
17. Tears well up in my eyes whenever I laugh hard (pretty embarrassing but I've been told it's cute o.o).
18. I wish I was a better singer.
19. When I want to procrastinate I often tend to sappy cliched shoujo oneshots with at least decent drawings (there aren't any left on mangafox T~T).
20. One thing that I really want for Christmas are the last volumes of Superior Cross translated (or Japanese RAW since translated seems impossible) but I find it too awkward to ask my brother (the who would probably get it) for it.
21. The other thing is... ... ... I can't say it but you should be able to figure it out >w<
22. I think that the guy should be the first one to confess only because I'd be too scared to ever confess my love to someone who could potentially reject/embarrass me.
23. I'm suspicious of practically everyone who talks to me for having an ulterior motive in their actions.
24. I've realized it's a miracle that I have people I can consider "true" friends since I barely put anything into relationships with anyone.
25. I can only think of two people I've ever seriously put effort into a relationship with. One seems to think (not without reason) that it's not enough and the other will probably never know how big a thing that was for me.
26. I originally started blogging wishing I could find a prince charming like Hikage in Koko ni Iru Yo >w<
27. I'm probably a super sadist >D
28. I regret that in high school I didn't make close friends with so many people I had the chance to.
29. I've often thought that if I disappeared off the face of the earth, other than my parents, no one would notice/care.
30. If I could go back and change just one thing in my life, I think I'd have gone back to a time when someone asked me: "What do you think of me?" and hit the 'enter' key.
Turned out to be something more of 30 confessions than 30 interesting facts... but I'm willing to bet that the challenge intended for that anyways. Ulterior motive successfully identified. /shot
Disclaimer: I can't promise they'll be interesting, they may not necessarily be all about me and some of them may be quite similar since I probably will think of one thing which will lead to another. Well... here goes anyways...
Day 06: Write 30 interesting facts about yourself
1. My "somewhat-official" middle name is Catherine.
2. I love Pokemon to the point where I can name almost all (darn Black and White ones) of them (or at least describe in detail any you throw at me =3).
3. My only plan for the future is to study abroad in Japan next year.
4. I love the dark.
5. I don't believe in ghosts, fairies, magic, the Easter bunny and the like.
6. I love all things artsy except for actually drawing or painting.
7. I've never pulled a reall all-nighter for school work to date.
8. Related to 7, rather than pull an all-nighter I would find some excuse as to why I couldn't hand in the work.
9. I lie a lot more than I should.
10. Overall I'm even uglier on the inside than on the outside.
11. I'm honestly blessed for the fact that I DO have friends despite my ugliness.
12. I'm an impossible romantic at heart.
13. I think it will be impossible for me to be in a relationship because my standards border ridiculous.
14. I'm a sneaky person that plays to other people's emotions for self-satisfaction.
15. I'm probably overconfident about all my abilities except for math and science.
16. I hate looking ignorant so I pretend to know about some things I have no idea about when people talk about it.
17. Tears well up in my eyes whenever I laugh hard (pretty embarrassing but I've been told it's cute o.o).
18. I wish I was a better singer.
19. When I want to procrastinate I often tend to sappy cliched shoujo oneshots with at least decent drawings (there aren't any left on mangafox T~T).
20. One thing that I really want for Christmas are the last volumes of Superior Cross translated (or Japanese RAW since translated seems impossible) but I find it too awkward to ask my brother (the who would probably get it) for it.
21. The other thing is... ... ... I can't say it but you should be able to figure it out >w<
22. I think that the guy should be the first one to confess only because I'd be too scared to ever confess my love to someone who could potentially reject/embarrass me.
23. I'm suspicious of practically everyone who talks to me for having an ulterior motive in their actions.
24. I've realized it's a miracle that I have people I can consider "true" friends since I barely put anything into relationships with anyone.
25. I can only think of two people I've ever seriously put effort into a relationship with. One seems to think (not without reason) that it's not enough and the other will probably never know how big a thing that was for me.
26. I originally started blogging wishing I could find a prince charming like Hikage in Koko ni Iru Yo >w<
27. I'm probably a super sadist >D
28. I regret that in high school I didn't make close friends with so many people I had the chance to.
29. I've often thought that if I disappeared off the face of the earth, other than my parents, no one would notice/care.
30. If I could go back and change just one thing in my life, I think I'd have gone back to a time when someone asked me: "What do you think of me?" and hit the 'enter' key.
Turned out to be something more of 30 confessions than 30 interesting facts... but I'm willing to bet that the challenge intended for that anyways. Ulterior motive successfully identified. /shot
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
[5/30] Suicide
Day 05: A time you thought about ending your own life.
As I've rephrased it in the title, today's topic is SUICIDE.
Just to be frank and say it out straight: even if I've ever thought of doing it, I never would. Because...
1) I'm a coward
2) I'm averse to pain
3) I'm too proud and would feel like committing suicide would be an act of shame
4) I'm rational and hence know that there is still so much to live for despite one moment of depression
I think that's the gist of it anyways. But the question isn't asking if I'd do it or not, it's asking about a time when I've thought of doing it. So continuing on...
I don't know... up until about a year or two ago I feel like I've been in a constant bubble of good fortune and happiness and such so that I never had the chance to even think about ending my life. It's not like things changed dramatically over the past few years that would make me change my mind, but I guess I grew older and with it some of my thoughts wandered to that zone.
I gave it some thought, even went away and came back trying to think of a particular time when I had... darker... thoughts but... no time in particular comes to mind. For whatever reason the evening/late night seems to be when I feel the most pensive and moody... so to answer the question in the most direct way possible "one night when I was thinking about many things" is about as specific as I can honestly get. xD
As I've rephrased it in the title, today's topic is SUICIDE.
Just to be frank and say it out straight: even if I've ever thought of doing it, I never would. Because...
1) I'm a coward
2) I'm averse to pain
3) I'm too proud and would feel like committing suicide would be an act of shame
4) I'm rational and hence know that there is still so much to live for despite one moment of depression
I think that's the gist of it anyways. But the question isn't asking if I'd do it or not, it's asking about a time when I've thought of doing it. So continuing on...
I don't know... up until about a year or two ago I feel like I've been in a constant bubble of good fortune and happiness and such so that I never had the chance to even think about ending my life. It's not like things changed dramatically over the past few years that would make me change my mind, but I guess I grew older and with it some of my thoughts wandered to that zone.
I gave it some thought, even went away and came back trying to think of a particular time when I had... darker... thoughts but... no time in particular comes to mind. For whatever reason the evening/late night seems to be when I feel the most pensive and moody... so to answer the question in the most direct way possible "one night when I was thinking about many things" is about as specific as I can honestly get. xD
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